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Friday, January 12, 2007
Lesson learnt from the dead/ 12:02 PM I begin this entry without a formal title as I can't think of a suitable one right now. Today is supposed to be my ORD talk but fate has it, it is now postponed to next Thursday. I hope the rain stops soon cos I've got so many activities planned for the next few days. If they are cancelled, I'd be so freaking pissed. Woke up this morning and decided to complete the final 2 episodes of 1 Litre Of Tears. Ever since I got into Chinese Society in JC and for godknowswhy reason I was drafted into becoming an actor, my tear glands seemed to be affected as I become a much more emotional person than before. During those times, we were taught to think of sad scenes, trained to build up teary eyes and then cry. My best record was actually under 1 minute. Yeah..thanks to all those crying those days, I'd get all sad and teary in emotional scenes. That also earned me the reputation of being more Ku1 Bao1 than my "mum" Wanjing when I started crying in episode 3 of 1 Litre. I'd definitely recommend 1 Litre Of Tears to all my friends. It's touching yet at the same time, inspiring. After watching, it has set me thinking. What's my purpose in living? As human, I guess we always take things for granted. Be it friends, family, material conforts and even our health. We assumed we'll all be well, things will be the way they are when we wake up the next day. The protagonist in the story has her own story to tell. It's about her long-standing battle with her disease and her courage to live her own life, without regrets. Since the past few entries, I had mentioned how I was affected by the story that set me moving finally, after a long period of not knowing what to do with my life. I realised that a simple phrase like "I'll never leave you" encourages the human spirit to carry on fighting. Warning: More spoilers ahead. It's hard to imagine a bubbly, lively girl like her (the main character in 1 litre) would slowly lose control of her own body. Losing her use of her limbs, ability to talk and can't even swallow in times to come. Yet, despite her disabilities, she chose to focus on what she can do. Her writings have been a great inspiration to those around her and the effects were in fact beyond her own imagination. She, through her writing, has helped others suffering from similar disease to live life with courage and appreciation. Though bedridden, she was a beacon of hope in the stormy seas and even after she's gone, she continues to shine like the a star in the night. That's how I describe her. She had unknowingly, became a pillar of strength to her doctor who tries his best to find a cure for her. When the patient fights so hard, the doc just couldn't give up. Never bow to circumstances till the very end, was what she did. Though she's passed away for many years, her story continues to inspire millions around the world. I know that I am sick but I will not cry For I am lucky that there's time to say goodbye When the time's up for me to leave, I've lost my battle with this disease. I take a deep breath and think back Memories of this world I once lived. The smile fades & I'm not sad Cos I have lived my life without regret. Haha..please don't ridicule me on my "poem". It's been so many years since I've attempted one. I had some serious thinking about some stuff yesterday. Is it only when we face death that we start to learn how to live? Maybe I'm subconciously really living my life more positively. All the courses that I've signed up for and planned ahead, they are all my dreams I had before and it's one step forward to a more purposeful living. Moreover, it's also good to have more options opened up for me during uni and to prepare for the years after. It's true that people shouldn't dwell too much on the past. Time to move on and prepare for the future. Maybe I'll call my entry " lesson learnt from the dead". |
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