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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
[F]ucke[D]up[S]quadron/ 9:35 PM I've decided that this shall be my last ever entry for me to air my grieviances against my dreaded vocation over at CAB FDS. I'm gonna get nasty, vulgar. I don't think any effort should be spared from lashing against all the screwed up things that's been going on. Things haven't been pretty from the start. It sucks when the situation's getting worse by the mounts and it surely doesn't help when my ORD date reads 02/07, meaning I have a good 8 months at least stuck in this place. When I 1st came as a xin1 jiao4 (newbird), mounting 4-4 (4 duties of 3hr each per day x2) or 4-3 was common. Yeah, it was shiong but we had 2-2 to look forward to, meaning after 2 days of mount, there would be 2 days of dismount. The lao jiaos told us to be prepared for the day when the GOH pulls out cos that would be time when the shit comes in. I've finally realised what they meant. More duties, more time in camp, less time outside. Yeah, I was from the GOH originally. Had I been more patient and calm, perhaps I'd have remained as a GOH and avoid all these shit. Mai, as well as several other GOH people asked me if I regret my decision to quit. My answer's a firm "No" and I'll never be. I've chosen this route, yeah it sure's gonna get tough but I chose it, I take responsibility for it. It's quite fucked up to learn that some base guys being so selfish and desperately unleashing stunts against their fellow colleagues,friends,brothers in the same shift! Frequent MCs, emergency leaves by them really makes me wonder why are they so fucked up. It's true that it's only 2 years of NS...can smoke, by all means smoke. But not at the expense of others right? Some guys just think of themselves and can be so near-sighted in terms of stunts. Can't they just take it like a man and for the next 8months or so, juz learn to bear with it, share the load with the rest of us? I could still tolerate their nonsense in the past cos we had sufficient manpower then. Now, things are different! I really cannot recognise myself as a Shift 2 member, or rather, I think myself as Shift 2 Northern...I am determined in distinguishing Base and Northern. For some of my fellow northern friends, we are ok with the crap base has been giving as long as they don't affect us. Things' been ok...till now! I really sympathise with the rest of the base personnels who continue to contribute despite the negative impression base has been giving. I bet they wanna get out of there if possible and leave the chaotic war zone. Even Shift 1's kb-ing about shift 2 base. Well, I'm not that affected cos I'm Northern, not Base! More often than not, it's Wenlong, Ignatius, Edwin and me who fight for the welfare for Northern. Yeah, we may sound aggressive at times but we have to fight for our own rights and benefits! Our sgt still too new, so I think he's quite easily 'eaten' by the base specs who outnumber him. It's not that we northern don't wanna help base. It's just that it isn't fair to us as well. Northern is the frontline, we have a heavier responsibility on our shoulders. To those who think that mounting at northern is easy and slack, FUCK YOU. If a fucking suicide bomber decides to do something foolish, he'll most probably be detected at Northern and a couple of us at Northern will have national flags drooping over our wooden bedframes before we lay to rest...eternally! All the dust from the lorries, genna Diao by our own FDS people, other military personnels and public. You think we enjoy doing that? We Northern suffered our fair share of misery even before a few months ago when ICTs came to mount at base, they (base pple) had around 2 duties whilst we still struggled with 4,4 or 4,3. I don't see any recognition or reward for what we've done. I'm quite saddened that there's so few people fighting for Northern's welfare. They just wanna leech, or are they too cowardly to react? All these small things really make me wanna ORD fast cos there's so many fucked up things and fucked up people in NS. Ok, with standby duties being implemented, this means our shift's being split up into 2, 1 doing on the 1st day immediately after our own mounting; the latter will see us booking in at 8am to be P2 force and head to our respective mounting emplacements at either 10am (northern) or 12pm (base). It's ok to do 6 hours of standby duties cos with this system being implemented, we've experienced less duties (usually 3 to 3.5 duties a day) though we'd spend more time in camp. However, the P2 force booking in time was originally 7am! I was damn fed up when I heard about this shit news cos it would be impossible for guys like me or ignatius to be on time since the 1st train arrives at JE at 5.45, the trip would take 45-50min and we have to change to bus 19 and that would take another 30min before we'd reach the camp premises. Taking public transport is the long term solution cos as NSFs, we aren't earning much to be take cabs so frequently since each trip will cost me nearly $20. And it sucks to book in at 8am too since we are basically zobolan-ing in flight, waiting for time to pass by. Oh, if this isn't bad enough, apparently S3 thinks there's a real need for more manpower to be QRF (Quick Rxn Force), or rather IRF (Instant Rxn Force) as they now call it. Hence, 4 men (2 northern, 2 base) hafta sleep overnight right after our standby duties and book out only after 9am the next day. Yeah, it sounds more like mounting 3 days and resting 1 day now. Yipppee....I really luuuuurve the brilliance of our commanders and upper management for coming up with such wonderful ideas. I was messaging with BoonKian while doing duty at Cisco the other day. He said in his sms that things cudn't get worse. I replied "agreed". But, we're WRONG! Never say never, Impossible is Nothing, Expect the Unexpected. Suddenly n eeriely, somehow things got worse and we've got more shit to suffer. Maybe the management planted some bugging device at various emplacements and upon learning we've yet to reach our limit, they've decided to push through their ever-hated policies time and again. 1 thing that I hate is that s3 decides to pass info through chain of command, rather than telling us man straight in the face. Perhaps he knows we'd protest this kindda shit he's been giving us so he decides to INFORM us rather than CONSULT us. I feel that communication is a 2 way thing. To win the hearts and respect of the man, I believe our commanders have some way to go. Sometimes they blur, give wrong info I can understand. But acting arrogant, u-think-u-know-everything attitude doesn't help much except maybe to have your name being added onto voodoo dolls. Does anyone up there in the management knows we're sufferring all these shit? Do they know that we're being pushed to our physical & mental limits for base and outpost personnels likewise? We're just NSFs. All we want is just to safely spend our remaining days in camp before we go back to our yearned civilian life. We don't wanna be some pawns, being manipulated, treated like shit by the regulars who really don't give a damn what you're experiencing. Must I remind them that WE are the batch of FDS RPs who passed the all-so-important g*d-d*amned security audit? They said we'll receive welfare once we passed it and threatened us of shit to come if we had failed. It's more like the other way round. I really can't see much welfare, except a couple of new guard posts with fan and shelter. Oh...so much for ur kindness, Sirs. So much for the welfare. For goodness sake, no manpower then have our 11th Changi FDC arrive earlier lah! If not earlier, we'd appreciate it when they come the same time as us last year. They had to prolong our suffering with manpower shortage by pushing the commencement of the 11th FDC 3 months back to September. I mean, have they thought of the consequence of that? By that time, the current SBAB and PLAB guys would have ORD and when my Xin Jiaos come, I'll probably be clearing my leave hence there's little time for my batch to teach them the ropes. We'd officially be the last batch who has experienced the various exercises and audit (and pass them!) and by Jan, we'd be clearing leave n doing our clearance for those who're gonna ORD in Feb. I bet my friends who're gonna ORD in march will most probably smoke out with us. Who the hell will run the show? Ah, I really don't give a damn about the new birds anymore. I guess they hafta fend for themselves and maybe learn it through the hard way. I really can't wait for Decemeber to arrive. I think it's a daily affair for me to dream the day my misery in CAB FDS being relieved with news of the 11th FDC. "Gentlemen of 10th FDC, reinforcements have arrived. Your take-over FDC is here". OH YEAH!!! My advice to them could be "fail audit. IF u pass, things will get worse, not better. Learn from our experience. Good luck!" On that day, I'll throw a punch up in the air cos I've survived all these shit together with my friends in FDS. That's assuming that I survive till then.... |
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